Saturday, April 30, 2011

counting down to exam day... 2 more days... scheduled a own time table to find the best time to concentrate and study hard. the time is like totally different with a normal people, its like wake up when ppl sleep, go to bed when ppl awake... probably lost contact with some friends... the moment working hard and some friends' going to have fun, it's kinda upset that myself coulnt join. it makes me even more cannot concentrate. hmmm.... why dun wait for me? sigh, she not even asked me whether joining or not... jst few more dayssss.... plzzz... i wanted to go, but i cant, not i dun want, i really cannot make it..... sigh....

stress.......... yea, i admit that im kinda emotional people, but at least forgive me that i being emotional when im in stressful exam period.... hmmm... i did it to you also rite? that situation even worst...

Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus, Focus,
fuck us..... sigh!!!

Released!

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

its study week.. must fight until die to pass the last two subject... at the same time i applied for jobs, arranged some interviews, and previously was busy about class gathering, quite busy plus a lil stressful. im not complaining that im stressful, i jst share with you all. i enjoy being lonely and also the moment talk to the wall. dunnoe why, bad things always come at the stressful moment.
sigh... sometime i jst need someone to be here, and here is always me alone in the nite. Most of the friends started their working life, everyone is busy and not like last time, can hang until midnite just to chit chat.

hmmm.. the class gathering was well organized and everything just great. everyone worked according to the plan, bring and bought the food they had promised. it was so great. but unexpected some of the food too much. being an organizer, chairman, treasurer, planner, secretary, dj, i feel that it is sucesful coz the gathering achieved all the objective like most of our course-mate attended the gathering, majority bring some foods, 1st time ever we all dinner together, we played together, we celebrate birthday, we seat down and talk, all is 1st time ever. although its sucesful but i still dun feel satisfaction, maybe that is not good enough for me. or maybe wasted too much foods. next time i can do it better i think. thanks to myself that organised a gathering to everyone.

#i cant stand to fly, im not that naive, im just out to find, the better part of me.... wish that i could cry, fall upon my knee, find a way to lie, about a home i'll never see... i may be disturb but wont you concede, even heroes have the right to dream it's not easy... im only a man with the silly red sheet, only a man looking for her dream. its not easy to be me#

im listening to "superman" by five for fighting. this is a nice song. it tells superman's thoughts. everyone thought that he is strong, but the truth is ppl dun see him when he is weak. actualy this song is not only describing superman's feeling, it's about the other side of one thing that we never see. we stand on our side to think and never consider other's ppl's feeling. in the song superman is the best example.

sigh.. facing the wall, make me feel lonely... actualy i quite enjoy silence but sumtime the feeling of missing sumone turns the night to become lonely nite. in the quiet nite, if you sudenly remembered the word that hurt you by someone then the night is lonely + sad. what to do? SLEEEEP!!! finish complaining... ciao!