Math Error!!!

Things became complicated. I saw the thing happen from the beginning. The beginning the thing is just a very simple things, but after a while, it involves more peoples, then different peoples give different opinions. it's not as simple as 1+1=2 anymore, it just like became "Tripple intregrate {square root(20 log [1+1+1+1+1+1+1])xyz power2}/{square root(10 log [1-1-1-1-1-1-1]) xyz power2} DXDYDZ+1+1+1....". I'm trying to calm down and try to not to involves in it. I saw it, i know what is happening but i'm Not involve? Do you think this is only for the selfish people.

I spent my time and seat at the balcony, wind blown, i heard people laugh out loud from far away, peoples quarrel sound in other house, some people seat in the garden and talk... a lot of different sound... I think again and again, What should i do? What i'm doing? why i'm such a bad decision making person? why i'm still hesitating although i got my decision? why i'm so Chicken? I dunnoe why suddenly i got a conclusion. Thats is, "Just be who you want to be" so that i can die peacefully, else i not even can sleep well.

When you're working, you can choose to be a good employee. If you're someone's friend, we can be his or her good Friend, of course, we also can be his bad friend. but once everyone know the truth, they will know who is the real you... Am i rite? I don't want to be a dumb and sit down at the cornet, keep quiet, don't make any sound, let a wonderful thing become a sad thing, and end up with disappoinment... Sigh! but How?? Sigh again!

I will be the person I want to be, although i "kia shu, kia si", but i dun want to die without reason. At the critical time, you will know who is "kia shu, Ka si". I got a few "Kia Si" friends, Seriously, I look down those "kia si" peoples (yup, sometime i look down myself too). But sometime i'm kinda happy with them, because I know they are worse than me. =P

I guess now is the CRITICAL TIME for me. I hope god will help me. TI GONG POPI!!!