when you take part in a 100meter sprint race, everyone put their hopes on you, all you supporters is looking at you and supporting you on that time with screaming, the 1st thing come out from your mind is you wish you can win that race and prove to them, not to disappoint them. at that time you are stressful, the stress from supporters' eyes, the stress from competitors, the stress from those look down at you, the stress from hopes...
Bang, the race started, everyone was very fast and you cant overtake them and you were not the 1st person who crossed the line. your performance suck because of lack of practices. That moment, people started to gossip behind you, peoples started to blame you, people started to look at you with the disappointed eyes. Imagine your feeling at that moment.
Do you wan to leave? but you can not leave the field, you can not hide, what you will wish at that moment? what you need at that moment?
although you knew that is your fault, your mistaken make you lose, do you wish somebody will walk toward you and give you a hug or hold your shoulder? they no need to say any single word, but that will be warm, rite? if they say something to comfort you, then that will be priceless and touch, rite?
what if they all never come to you?
Friends... yes, recently i having some problem, I feel guilty, i feel sorry, i'm stressful, and i cannot do anything... Yes, i'm a emo guy, but erm.. i still hope you guys understand and forgive me if i really look weird or talk sarcastically... haih... hope you won't ask what is the problem. SORRY, friends... thanks.. Sigh!!